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    Long time no see folks, as you can tell. And a couple or so of you have noticed that my DA has essentially been scrubbed of its contents (albeit not actually deleted, rather all sent to the Scraps folder). The same thing happened to my older, neglected :icongeckoroverse: account too, albeit I hope to someday clean that all out and get rid of it aptly (while saving all the valuable contents of course). I suppose you're curious about that, but I've abstained to say anything on the matter until now.

Long story short, I've had a very bumpy road of personal problems the past few months, apparently yoyo-ing from dilemma to dilemma, from anxiety to loneliness to mild depression and so on. I've started looking into therapy since the first meeting I had before Christmas vacation and all that, since that was recommended for a while now. For the most part though, I've got some incredibly major, branching, and crippling confidence issues that are infuriatingly irrational and hover around me like a some black cloud or whatever; not to mention endlessly full of dread and restlessness. Doing major art or anything has been technically postponed due to those sensations, and I've put Gecks into an indefinite hiatus until I get a rightful refresher from it and some better ideas for later usage. Have been wanting to work on smaller but personally engaging projects, but still having those personal troubles getting in the way of that.

The cleanup for the pages was originally because I wanted to get rid of them outright and move onto newer pastures and such, but I've been putting that on hold since this account is still a bit young and I'm still working through some decisions and so on. I've neglected to inform more peers and friends on this matter, but I suppose I felt attentions were at such a level that leaving would be easily missed and without much as a murmur. But, some things think otherwise.

Anyways, at least to those whom have their attentions on my being, I felt it was important to at least get this out of the way. I'm not sure of when I'll start back up or how, but I'm definitely trying to get myself rolling again outside of here, and trying to get some actual enjoyment from what I do. Second semester of my second college year starts up in a few days, so I'll have that to keep me busy a bit too.

Hope you all had a nice holiday break as well, and best wishes to whatever comes next for the lot of ye'.
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: Ridiculon
  • Reading: DoomWiki
  • Watching: Clarence
  • Playing: The Binding of Isaac Rebirth
  • Eating: Chocolate Cake
  • Drinking: Milk

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Olive12ish Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2014  Student General Artist
thanks for the fav!
gerdzerl Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I see.

Hope everything goes well for you, dude. :hug:

Btw, I'm streaming later today and tomorrow. Wanna come watch?
StarvingGecko Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Student General Artist

Other projects on varying topics and varying mediums. More things to my liking that I usually didn't cover on my years at DA before since 24/7 Geckoro. Lots of female characters, various game concepts, maybe fan art here and there, other such things. Trying to stretch my legs on the music front lately and all too, on another end.
gerdzerl Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
well okey dokey den

so what kinda new stuff can we expect from you now?
StarvingGecko Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Student General Artist
Jus' trying to start from scratch...trying, at any rate. I sure am gettin' a lotta' attention when I'm wiping myself clean, apparently. Rather messes up my front page notes. :V
I'm wanting to be able to focus on my other interests and such, occupations and the like in terms of arting and such. Gecks is something beyond the scope of the kaiju community now and I've got other subjects and ideas I'd like to focus on without it becoming my singular face like it has been for the last 7 years or so.
Sooooo yeah.
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