A bit of the blues, and the future

    Long time no see folks, as you can tell. And a couple or so of you have noticed that my DA has essentially been scrubbed of its contents (albeit not actually deleted, rather all sent to the Scraps folder). The same thing happened to my older, neglected account too, albeit I hope to someday clean that all out and get rid of it aptly (while saving all the valuable contents of course). I suppose you're curious about that, but I've abstained to say anything on the matter until now.

Long story short, I've had a very bumpy road of personal problems the past few months, apparently yoyo-ing from dilemma to dilemma, from anxiety to loneliness to mild depression and so on. I've started looking into therapy since the first meeting I had before Christmas vacation and all that, since that was recommended for a while now. For the most part though, I've got some incredibly major, branching, and crippling confidence issues that are infuriatingly irrational and hover around me like a some black cloud or whatever; not to mention endlessly full of dread and restlessness. Doing major art or anything has been technically postponed due to those sensations, and I've put Gecks into an indefinite hiatus until I get a rightful refresher from it and some better ideas for later usage. Have been wanting to work on smaller but personally engaging projects, but still having those personal troubles getting in the way of that.

The cleanup for the pages was originally because I wanted to get rid of them outright and move onto newer pastures and such, but I've been putting that on hold since this account is still a bit young and I'm still working through some decisions and so on. I've neglected to inform more peers and friends on this matter, but I suppose I felt attentions were at such a level that leaving would be easily missed and without much as a murmur. But, some things think otherwise.

Anyways, at least to those whom have their attentions on my being, I felt it was important to at least get this out of the way. I'm not sure of when I'll start back up or how, but I'm definitely trying to get myself rolling again outside of here, and trying to get some actual enjoyment from what I do. Second semester of my second college year starts up in a few days, so I'll have that to keep me busy a bit too.

Hope you all had a nice holiday break as well, and best wishes to whatever comes next for the lot of ye'.